Trepidation (HJ)

noun 1. tremulous alarm or agitation; perturbation.

Wednesdays are not really a convenient weigh-in day for me because I often have to be out and about earlier than usual. Also, I started on a Saturday in the first place, so tomorrow is the end of my first real week of trying to eat better and exercising like mad.

I like to measure weekly. It's like a little surprise to see how I've been doing when there has been enough time for a difference to be apparent. Yes, I'm big on delayed gratification. I like the anticipation. And it can be such a boost to my mindset for the week ahead.

Unfortunately it's now after lunch on Friday and I've started to get a little tetchy that after all my hard work and will power I might not lose anything at all. No centimetres around. No kilograms.

I'm feeling great, but that's not really measurable. I dashed well ought to have been building muscle, but what if the kilos have gone up, given that muscles are heavy and I might not have lost any fat? What if my new-found muscles (and boy, did I find them this week!) cause me to be further around?

Whatever the outcome, I'll need to hold onto the fact that I am feeling good, sleeping better, and I'm certain these pants feel more comfortable than when I wore them last week.

The other thing is that it's going to be near impossible to hold in my elation or depression after my Saturday morning weigh & measure. Wednesday can seem a long way off.